January 26, 2010

Reminiscing

I have little notes and pictures and quotes stuffed throughout my Bible and often they fall out, and I get to look at them again and be reminded of why I keep them there. One in particular caught my eye this morning.

Matt moved into the condo we were gonna live in after we were married about a month before we got married. Since I lived in a house with 6 girls and one bathroom, I often went over there while he was at work to escape and have peace.

One night in particular I walked up the stairs and found this note on the dining room table:

"If you come for something to eat, just know I love you with all my heart, my beautiful soon to-be wife,
Love Matt"

Just like that. Written in his distinct handwriting on a page that was torn out of some journal I'm sure. Direct and simple and full of meaning, just like my Mateo.

I loved finding that note this morning and just remembering back to us and the beginning of our journey. We could never in a million years have guessed then that three years later we'd be living in Montana, about to have a baby boy, and still dreaming strong.

Oh how I love doing life with Matt. Seriously, I can't express it more deeply. I wouldn't want to do life with anyone else.

We have an entire date day tomorrow, and both of us wonder if it'll be our last one just the two of us. That's a crazy thought. Lord, may it be blessed and full and infused with Your presence.

January 21, 2010

38 Weeks and Almost 2 Days

I am definitely full-term pregnant, I feel it in my body. My ligaments feel like gumby. My lower back HURTS. I have cankles and snausage toes. I'm unsteady on my feet. All I can think about is where's the nearest comfy chair. I have gall stones, and spent a night last week in Labor and Delivery so they could treat it. Not fun at all.

BUT.

I'm surprisingly not totally miserable. For some reason I just find it necessary to highlight all of the negative. Although I do have to mention one more change. My hormones are definitely out of control. I am ridiculously irritable and easily angered.

Matt's been so fantastic though. He's been just awesome during this whole process.

But I still don't feel ready to deliver, I feel like he needs a couple more weeks in my belly. I want his little lungs to be fully developed and I want him to have the fullest chance at being totally and completely developed. I do have to admit though, I have looked up natural induction methods. And you better believe that at 40 weeks on the nose we're putting those into place.

Oh, I'm tired. So tired. That's all I have the energy for, folks.

January 13, 2010

Word Power

I was reminded of something very important last week.

Matt and I had lunch with a dear friend of ours here in Missoula. An older gentleman with lots of wisdom always readily available.

Well, first let me back up.

There is this person Matt and I know here (a different person than the one I was just talking about) and there is just something different about his personality, we just don't get him. We don't know him well at all. In fact every time I see him I have to say his name in my head first to make sure I say the right one out loud. But he's just a different personality and we haven't always gotten him.

Anyways, back to our lunch with our wise friend... In passing, our friend mentioned what an incredible guy this man is. He told us of a ton of behind the scenes things that this man has consistently done, and the incredible amount of time and talent and personal possessions that this guy has given in secret and has never asked for anything in return. He mentioned what a support and encouragement he's been to him. Just really great things.

I didn't even talk about it with Matt but I was quite shocked at how instantly my view changed of this person. I immediately had high respect and regard for him. Simply because a brother of his chose to honor him with his words. And the next time I saw him, I was genuinely pleased to see him.

Isn't that amazing?

I have also experienced the exact opposite. I've heard someone mention something negative about someone else, and try as I might, it's extremely difficult to erase the negative image that becomes attached to that person.

It was a gentle reminder that I need to be very, very careful about the words that I speak about others. I want to be somebody that honors others and creates value for them in the minds of others. I don't want to be a negative-image-creator; there's enough of those as it is.
"Death and life are in the power of the tongue..."
-Proverbs 18:21a-

January 08, 2010

Pregnancy Update

I am 36 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Baby Micah is a moving, rolling, kicking fiend. Today particularly, I have siezed up in pain several times as he gets some good bladder shots in. I've been taking liquid iron (shout-out to Elizabeth) and I feel a million times better. I wish I'd started taking it sooner, I don't think I would have complained so much.

My Missoula baby shower is tomorrow, and I'm very excited. I'm also very nervous because I don't like being the center of attention, especially when I feel like I can't adequately express my appreciation and gratefulness to everyone.

My parents have been here for the week and it's been great. We've gotten to hang out a lot and it's really made the week fly by. I'm also so glad that they will get to be at the shower tomorrow. Matt will be there too. I asked him to be there for moral support. :)

Let's see, what other major updates about this pregnancy...

Not too much to report. There's a full moon January 30th (I think), and I've heard that more babies are born then, so I have this inkling that that may be the date, or around there. Very scientific, I know. We've all taken bets (except we didn't actually collect) on when he will be born and how much he will weigh. Kyla has my least support as she predicted I will be two weeks overdue. Kyla, I would like to rebuke you in the name of Jesus.

I have a prenatal massage today and I cannot wait. I think I'm more excited for the belly cutout that enables your body to forget it's carrying all that weight for an hour. I got to have one last week too (thanks Jami!). I've been very blessed.

Well, I'll wrap it up. I think I'm just rambling now. I know I've said this before, but I promise I'll post updated prego pics soon...